This might seem obvious to most other people, but I just came to realize this:
Works of art are not created, they are developed.
Most works, in any format, begin about as mediocre as what I've done so far. What makes something worth looking at or appreciating is the work that's put into it from there. Art Work is equal parts Work to Art.
I think people have been screaming this at me for several years now but now I have taken it in.
At this point, though, my school career seems to be nothing more than a series of deadlines. Homework deadlines, end of semester deadlines, deadline for applying for the class I want which means deadline for cleaning up all of my shabby work, and graduation deadline which means demo reel deadline so that I can get a job.I'm more stressed now about the future than I've ever been. Hopefully getting on track with this can help.
It's much easier to say the right things than to do them. Hopefully coming back and reading this will help with the follow through.